loti55's Blog

One clue should be that gal who implies all these amazing exploits with any number of partners - and not one of her photos has a man it it - or anyone but her.

I wonder how many of the women on this site are the 21 century version of the cock teaser... girls who promise the moon and deliver exactly nothing, and when pressed about it, insist that they were misunderstood or blame it on the poor slob who was trying to make time with them. It seems that despite what they say, many of them are about as available as nuns.
I suppose one shouldn't be surprised by this; women (for whatever reason) have been taking advantage of lonely/horny/silly men since Eve bit the apple. I guess that I was expecting there to be much less of it on a forum such as this, but alas, it seems it is not so.
I am just hoping that someday I will be able to find that cheerful, open, giving woman who is what she says she is, and leaves the teasing to the high school girls (this does not include you, Foxi, I know you are the real deal, but that fucking ocean is between us).
So here's hoping that one day my princess will arrive; until then I'll be beating off while looking at all the other lovely, unattainable ladies here on NN.

I have got to say that I really, really miss eating pussy - it's been quite awhile and I am starving for some... I work with a bunch of really cute girls and I find myself fantasizing about them sitting naked on my desk with my face stuck firmly in their crotch.
I just hope I get to give someone a kiss & a lick one more time before I die!

A concurrence of recent events (and non events) has lead me to examine why I would participate in activities such as this, namely acting and hopefully interacting on a sex site. My conclusion, after a great deal of soul searching and self examination (no, that that kind, you pervert!) is that there is one essential element missing from my well ordered and comfortable life - and that is passion.
I have a good job that I enjoy, a wife I am fond of and with the exception of the lack of sex I find a good companion, my adult children do not make excessive demands of me (meaning they are not on drugs or in jail) and close friends that I know I can count on if things get tough.
So what is it that is missing? Why do I feel somehow incomplete, as if something is missing? Is it simply the creaky old cliche of a mid-life crisis, or is it something more? What is it I crave? Is it danger, excitement, the lure of "forbidden fruit"? What is it?
The best I can come up with is that my life lacks passion - what I crave is something that grabs my full attention, something I find so compelling that everything else is secondary. I remember when I first discovered the guitar, and my fumbling efforts to make the change from an E chord to a G. I played for months and months, for hours every day until I was banging out every song the Beatles ever wrote, and none of that ever seemed lie work. It was pure joy and it felt like a privilege to be able to do it...
And later in life, in a fancy restaurant, after a wonderful dinner with a smart, beautiful, sexy woman, a girl I hadn't even slept with yet, sharing a piece of terramisu... that silly dessert was so good it went beyond the sublime to the ridiculous, every spoonful I fed her and every one I took was like ambrosia, something that mere mortals can barely handle... looking into her eyes and KNOWING what she was feeling, that connection to our mutual passion aided and abetted by a pastry.
So - I'm left wondering where this goes next, this hunger for passion, or at least for passionate experiences. As I'm old enough to know that nothing is free, I'm also wondering if the price is too high - I have no problem with the inevitable consequences, the decision now is am I willing to continue to pay that price? If I decide to go to the side of comfort, is that really the defeat it feels like, or the gracious acceptance of reality? How much am I willing to give up for passion?