DeuceII's Blog

Early this morning at about 2:30 AM we had a power failure due to a huge thunderstorm. This power failure also kicked off our fire alarm. Strangely, I was the only person there to greet the firemen when they arrived. In fact, I was the only person outside of any apartment in the building. There was not even anybody representing building management.

Usually a fire alarm in the middle of the night in my apartment building is due to somebody falling asleep when there is a pizza in the oven. We all congregate either just outside the building or in the foyer, depending on the weather. It never looks like everybody in the building is there, but at least MOST of us have survival instincts. But this time nobody else showed up. I walked through the building with the firemen giving them what little help I could, mostly just using my flashlight in addition to theirs when they needed extra light. Yes, I keep a light in a drawer next to my bed. (Is that paranoid or prepared?)

Okay, maybe some of them didn’t hear the alarm. The alarm used to be so loud that it would nearly scare me to death. Imagine, dying from the alarm instead of a fire. So the volume has been turned down significantly and maybe it doesn’t wake everybody from their deep sleep. BTW, I am not the one requesting it to be turned down. Or maybe there have just been too many burnt pizzas. Or maybe a lot of people just don’t have survival instincts.

So I have to wonder, am I just being paranoid by responding to every file alarm in the building, regardless of the time of day? Or are there a lot of people in my building courting death for themselves, their spouses and their children, just because they assume it is another false alarm?

Damn. Diet time again. I am extremely heavy. About a month and a half ago I was 370 pounds. Over the past month and a half I have lost about 20 pounds, but that is just a start. I say 370 pounds, but that is not necessarily as bad as it sounds. Yes, it is bad any way you look at it, but I have had no problems tying my shoes. No problem picking up a coin from the floor unless my back is bothering. No problem sitting or standing or walking. Just waaaayyyy too heavy. Okay, I am trying. Keep in mind that if a drug addict wants to quit his drug he can go cold turkey. If I want to lose weight, I can’t go cold turkey, it will cause other major health problems. I have to merely cut back. Imagine a heroin addict “just cutting back.” It’s not going to happen. How about a cigaret smoker “just cutting back?” Right. It will work for a week or two at the most. Can an alcoholic “just cut back?” That is one of the things the experts say, that just one drink will very likely cause you to fall off the wagon. But that is all that fat people can do, “just cut back.” Going cold turkey can actually be fatal.

Okay, I was 370 lbs in June but have held steady at about 350 for maybe about two weeks now. That’s a start, but obviously I have to keep going. So what is holding me back? Beer maybe? I try to keep my beer consumption to twice a week. So what is my problem? It must be the carbohydrates, protein and fat. It can’t be the water, so it must be the above. Since I can’t go cold turkey, I will have to grit my teeth and think of the hot women that ignore me because of my weight. Maybe I can do it. Maybe. If you know a fat person, you might know what I am whining about. But I will try.

I am not a good or consistent blogger. If I continue blogging, it probably will not be on a regular basis. You might or might not agree with anything I say, and that is your right. Just as it is my right to say it, as long as I am not violating your rights by doing so.

Just for the record, my sexual tastes run 100% female. Guys do not turn me on. However, I can still appreciate any nice comments or compliments from anybody, man or woman. I have received some very nice comments and messages from men, and I am flattered. Feel free to continue to do so keeping in mind that I will appreciate the thoughts, but I won't reciprocate those feelings or urges. For what it is worth, the only thing I see wrong with gay men is their bad taste in sexual partners. Some men like fat women, some like skinny women, some like their women in between, and some men like other men. Enough on that subject.

Back to my thoughts on blogging. I would like to continue blogging, but I have my doubts as to how many people would enjoy finding out what my thoughts might be. We will see. Until next time. . .