some people asked me why i started doing mma and why i keep doing it? the reason i started doing it was to really just piss my parents and friends off, cuz no one really thought i would keep doing it, so three years of hard work later i finally got my brown belt. most people will look at that and think 3 years for a brown belt? well people dont realize that for years i couldnt look myself in the mirror, i didnt like the person i was becoming and i didnt go to the gym, i had a hard time getting up in the morning and wanting to go the gym and train, not just go the gym. when i got the job i have now i think a light clicked on in my head that you know what? i am a good person, i can have what i want and i think i deserve to be happy, even if that means i wont be online as much. i know certain people here dont really care about me or my happiness and to them i say fuck you and move on, i should have cared less about others and care more about me. its been awhile since i trained this hard and was able to get up everyday and look in the mirror and see that i am who i am and if you cant like yourself than what good are you to the rest of the world? i may not be perfect looking or in the best shape but i am at least trying to improve myself, how many of you can actually say that? |