This movie I stumbled upon, home, bored, and nothing better to do than to watch this, not knowing what to expect. Surprising to me this was more of a porno than what I was expecting to find on a popular streaming service. But a little about the movie. It's a story of a female nympho, and I won't give away the plot for those of you who may want to view it without me ruining it. But this movie really made me think of sexuality, my own and others. I for one stated, I wished I had a female nymphomaniac and I can tell you after watching this film I no longer wish that. Now I'm sure there are many different types of nymphomaniacs. We can't just single out one instance and say this is what it is. As with any disorder, and I really don't like to call it a disorder because this is how some people live and have to deal with, just like PTSD or other similar disorders we all struggle. But the definition I found is, Nymphomania is a mental disorder marked by compulsive sexual behavior. Compulsions are unwanted actions, or rituals, that a person engages in repeatedly without getting pleasure from them or being able to control them. Unwanted? Just because it's a disorder is it something we don't want? I mean mentally are we saying we don't or is that society saying we don't?
So it has made me think, am I a nymphomaniac? The short answer I believe is no. As you're reading this, stop to think that you're reading a blog on a pornographic website. Could you possibly think you're a nymphomaniac? For me, I realized a nymphomaniac could possibly be a person who is ever struggling to find that euphoric pleasure of orgasm. Just like an addict who's trying to find that next great high. But for a nymphomaniac it's not a drug you are putting into your body. In fact it's a release of a drug your body naturally produces as a result. Could a nymphomaniac ever find love? I think they could, but would they appreciate it? Would they value it in a relationship between both partners? Would a nymphomaniac share empathy within a relationship? And this is where I truly believe I am not. I strive passionatly to enhance my partners sexual experiences, much as I want my sexual experiences. I find sexual gratification in pleasuring my partner more so than I feel sexual gratification within and orgasm for myself.
Tonight I saw in status a discussion on the meaning of life. Stop wasting time on what is the meaning of life and live your life. You're only here for a short time so you better make the best of it while you're here. So enjoy it. For some it might be spending it with friends or family. For others it might be finding your ultimate sexual gratification. Or finding love or a partner that you are also best friends with. But I believe it's all of that. Have fun with you, what makes you happiest? And do you have a partner that you can share that happiness with?
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