I was sitting here the other day so tore up, and then finally Howlin gave me something to do, to try to help me, and I did it. I wasn't sure that it was going to work, but where I was at, it was worth a try and in reality it helped me a lot.
Huge weights lifted off my chest or just in general, I'm sitting here looking at life, and thinking and processing how I want MY life to continue. Needless to say I have let go of a lot of things, took a look and finally just said, "I am done." The past is the past, it is what it is one persons view to someone else's. Every person has moved on, every person is happy where they are, and no one needs to being taking stabs, jabs or slaps. At the very least my goal, and what I am going to work on is just letting the past go, and moving on with being happy, because each person deserves their happiness. Regardless what people think or how they feel, this is how -I- feel and how I from now on will look at life.
Live, love, laugh, have faith, believe and keep going.
So be happy, all of you, even those who dislike me, even those who don't know me, especially those who do, and anyone else I may have missed. It's time to stop letting life pass by, and just be happy that life for all has moved on.
I came upon this choice to make in my life when I looked over the past year of my life, and it has been wonderful, but it could have been even better with taking a deep breath and letting everything else go. Tomorrow is the one year mark of Howlin being clean and sober, and above all else that has come this past year, this is the thing that I am most proud of, I know it was hard, I know there were many times where it would have been easier just to give in and take that drink, but he didn't, he kept pushing along and here he is, one year later clean and sober. Howlin, there is nothing else in this world that I am more proud of, there are no words that can express how proud of you that I am, so I leave you with this,... for every year that you continue on, I will find a way to -show- you what your accomplishment means to me. Congratulations sweetheart.
Smile, it's what makes the whole world go round.
It's true, and I have come to realize how true it is.
Sug